"Convulsion  Heart"

(Jonathan Miller/ ©Venus Songs (ASCAP))

I tried to be myself 
I tried to open up 
But like a doll thrown on a shelf I was a silent dove 
Through the sacred fire I was burned and was scarred 
I walked on a constant wire 
I almost fell apart 
You stole something I loved 
Filled me with hate and doubt 
Well now I have had enough 
The truth is coming out 
Gotta do what's best for me
It's been an eternal night
Found the power in my beliefs
Got the weapons to win the fight 

[Chorus]
There's no way I'll give up
It's not in my blood 
I am on the hunt to show what I'm made of 
Now that I'm awake I can finally say 
I'm going insane from the world I tried to save
I'm unable to breathe
Their strengths increase
It's like I'm choking by those I thought loved me 
You say you know it's hard 
You caused the hardest part 
Now I see who you are from my
Convulsion Heart 

Breathe, Breathe, Breathe 

If you want someone to blame you can blame yourself 
You're stuck in your mental game 
Fighting air in a shell 
Your words are in humane stinging my heart to death
You thought you could have your way 
Now look who has nothing left 

[Chorus] 

It's been months and months and I've had enough
I'm sorry if you don't like it but I'm gonna be blunt 
You refuse to hear, you continue to lie 
Well now I guess, baby, it's your time to cry
Call it what you want: "Rebellion," "Immaturity" 
But not everything I say is make believe 
So any way you put it, you know I'm done, I'm through
To give up on love? Sorry I refuse!

[Chorus] 

Breathe, Breathe, Breathe
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe